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25 February 2011 @ 04:41 pm
Is there a 12-step program for TV addiction?  
It’s just a stupid TV show. Or so I keep telling myself. Dammit, why can’t I be obsessed with shows that don’t exceedingly depress me? Why do I even allow myself to get obsessed with television shows in the first place?

Geez…I am really starting to sound like a broken record. I am so hopeless. But seriously, I really want to cry right now. I want to go home, curl up into a tiny ball on my bed, and have a good long cry. But I still have a good three to four hours before I can leave work and do that. The worst part is, I’m not good at hiding my emotions, and people are starting to notice that I’m not as happy-go-lucky as I was to begin with this morning. I really need to go back to my no-livejournal-at-work-not-even-lunchtime policy because seriously. Or better yet, stick to my own damn no-spoilers policy. Which would be much easier if everybody wasn’t talking about them! And excitedly no less. Which I don’t get because they have me extremely worried about the next couple of episodes. I’m super stoked about the upcoming music but everything else…thus far, nothing has turned out as expected regarding spoilers, so I am holding out hope. However, I’m going to admit, I’m really worried and its getting me really depressed. Which is really ironic because I’ve felt like I have been one of the more optimistic people regarding spoilers for the past couple of episodes when everybody has been freaking the fuck out, and now that people seem to be super excited and happy, I just want to cry.

I’m going to have to give myself a project or something because if I don’t have something else to occupy myself with for the next week and a half, I will probably be a nutcase by the time the next episode airs. That’s it. No more spoilers, I mean it. I’m going to have to stop watching a certain community, but if that’s what I have to do. I’m not going to let something that hasn’t even happened yet get me down. Not this time around. I’m going to get through the rest of today (TGIF), go work-out, pick up some ice cream on the way home, maybe some alcohol, curl up on my couch and watch Star Trek (because that movie never fails to cheer me up). Then tomorrow I will clean my room, clean out/wash my car, organize my music so I can back it up on the external—all of the things I’m been meaning to do for weeks. What I won’t do is spend all weekend on the internet.

Okay, pep talk over now. Heck, I may even manage it. Not likely though.

Oh, TV, I wish I knew how to quit you.
Place: work
Mood: depresseddepressed
Jams: Don't You Want Me Baby - Glee