In terms of story-telling, looking at the show very coldly, season three of Torchwood was a great story. I acknowledge that. If I had been watching this as a first time viewer, I might have loved it.

But as an invested fan... Fuck you RTD.

Atlantis...Robin Hood...Torchwood... my three most beloved shows. And each one of them got fucked over--each increasingly more so.

I need a break from TV for a while. At this point though, I'd be an idiot to ever let myself become emotionally invested in another TV show again. The heartache just isn't worth it.

I was reading a discussion over at kirk_mccoy, and something someone said so made me think about myself. They said something along the lines of growing up and getting their slash goggles installed. LOL. That's totally what happened to me a year and a half ago: I got my slash goggles installed. *giggles* I don't quite remember consenting to that operation, but now that I've got them, I love them. And they work very well with the shipper goggles I was born with. 8D

This fandom is making me think way too much. Like deep thought kinda stuff. I'm analyzing character relationships. I'm lurking in discussions threads about all sorts of different aspects of the movie (and only lurking because I'm afraid I'll type something that makes me sound like a complete and total idiot--but I want to participate, which is new). I'm reading thoughtful metas and geeking out over understanding explanations about how the science of space-time works in Trek. I'm researching pre-movie canon to better understand the movie and the significant changes in it.

In short, not only has Trek taken over my life, but it's making me think, a lot, about more than how pretty this person is and how much I want these two characters to be together. I want to discuss this movie so much with other people, but I really don't have a lot of people I can discuss with any real detail with. I wish I could just get over my fear of sounding like an idiot (which took me forever to do in real life).

And what's make things worse is that I'm writing a freaking fanfic. A first other than a few (3) drabble--only one that was actually completed (at a whooping 90 words). The one I'm currently writing is close to 1,000 words, only it's less that I'm writing it and more like the idea's in my head, trying to claw its way out. It's either write it down or have my brain explode. Which, with my usual original fic would be okay, except I've never written a fanfic before and my inner critic is screaming at me. It not original enough, or that's too cliche, or that character wouldn't do that. My internal critic is hard enough to ignore when I'm writing original fic; it's nearly impossible to do with this fanfic. And yet I feel compelled to write it. My muse must be a masochist. No, more like a sadist, since I'm the one with the headache.

Like I said, my brain hurts.

I love how when certain fans aren't getting what they want on-screen, it's because there is a conspiracy to deny the rightness of their way. The writers are deliberately keeping the pair apart so others don't see how perfect they are together. Seriously... *headdesk*

Anyway, about last night's Atlantis: Loved it, though not as much as the first part, I think. I still need to rewatch. When that happens, I write up a more detailed response, if I can find the time.

I had to do it. I had to purge my computer. I just didn't have any space left. I'm flat broke. I can't afford to get more space on my computer nor can I afford a DVD burner. Nope. Torchwood, Doctor Who, and Atlantis are gone. Wiped. No more. I tell myself it's a good thing. Less time spent on the computer. But still I mourn their loss. My faithful friends. *cries*

Okay, no more TV for Danielle. I still have the last season of Queer as Folk to watch. Plus, I just got the first disc for the X-Files. It's been on my "To Watch" list for a while now since I'm big on Sci-Fi and all that jazz but just was too young (and too big of a whus) for the craze. But I have seen a few episodes and now after seeing the pilot, I'm really looking forward to watching it from the beginning. Then there's the whole re-watching of SG-1 to do. And when is the new season of Atlantis. July 11? That's a little more than a month away. Like I said: no more TV for me. Lol.

Anyone know of any good Stargate Atlantis gen/team vids from Season 4 (just S4 or from all 4 seasons)? I'm just in the mood for a few Atlantis vids and don't know of any good ones made after/during Season 4. Thanks.

If you'd shag them put the name in bold.
If you'd shag them after a few drinks put the name in italics.
If you'd shag them only if they have protection underline the name.
If you wouldn't shag or don't know who they are, leave as is.
If you wouldn't shag them at gunpoint, cross the name out.

Add one or more character names and/or fandoms of your own. Once the list gets long enough to be unwieldy (use your judgment) start removing one name for every name you add.

( I'd hit that )

Stolen from tehshroom.

When you go to a "fan" site and all you read is people complaining about the show. Doesn't being a "fan" of a show mean you like it? So why does it seem sometimes that all fans do is complain all the time about the show they are fans of? Shouldn't we "fans" be rejoicing over having a show we adore enough to join the fandom? I don't get it.

I'm currently watching a TV show that doesn't have episode titles. Just Season 1, Episode 1. And it's driving me absolutely crazy!!!! How am I supposed to remember what happened in what episode without a bleedin episode title. GRrrrrrrr.....

Seriously, this is the first show I've ever watched without them.

You would think that 114 userpics would be more than enough. I certainly used to think so...until my fandom obsession branched out from just SGA onto Robin Hood, then Torchwood, and now Doctor Who is getting real close to being an obsession. And there are sooo many good icon-makers out there. It's so hard to chose from all the pretty icons. 114 is simply not enough. *cries*


Sorry for the whine. Please carry-on with your lives.

Just a few things I have to get off my chest (please ignore me):

1) Why do people watch shows they don't like? If you hate the show so damn much, STOP WATCHING IT. Stop torturing yourselves and us by bitching about it all the time.

2) The renewal crisis. It's happening in all three of my fandoms--they have been renewed and the fandom is freaking out because of rumors and speculation, fearing the worst and believing the show they know and love is going to be fucked over by the TPTB. Seriously people, take a chill pill and relax. Have a little faith and if you can't do that, at least have the patience to wait and see. No need to have a heart attack over something that's untrue or didn't mean what you thought it did. You'll feel less like an idiot in the end.

Grrrrr...fandom frustrates me sometimes.

My sister won second place in the SGA Other Pairing category for the Stargate Music Video Awards. Congratulations Jenn!!!!

yeah, yeah, I know I'm behind